Why is it when there is so much to do, there is so little focus? I just want to bypass today and get on the plane. But I have shopping, packing, cleaning, laundry, mailing, cooking, and all kinds of things to do before that can happen. I am so excited to be going to visit my amazing daughter, her hubby, and her beautiful kiddos! It seemed a long way off when we made our plans but time has sped by quickly.
So for today I need to focus and be purposeful to get the things done on my list! I was going to write about why I have a ladder on my blog page. But more about my life being a work in progress - under construction - constantly updating - later! For today the progress needs to be on updating my LIST! so here's to FOCUS!
Monday, April 25, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
Why "Good" Friday?
So when I woke up this morning - I wondered - why do we call it Good Friday? Why not Tragic Friday? or Bad Friday? Now remember - I'm a realist - so things from my vantage point are not often gray! In my head, I do know that sometimes there has to be bad so there can be good - and I know in my heart that I am forever grateful that Jesus died for me - for my sins and the sins of all - but I still have a hard time thinking of it as Good Friday. As much as I'm grateful for this day, I'm embarrassed that we humans have such heart issues and can do such things to hurt others. I remember when we went to the movie version of this time a few years ago and feeling such sadness.....and last night at the living last supper listening to the disciples wondering who would betray Him.....dark Friday......sad Friday.....but Good?
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Oops - Forgot!
Since I'm new to this whole blogging thing - I forgot to add another post. Thought today I'd blog a bit about my new normal and why I easily forget!
3 years ago, I had a traumatic brain injury - TBI in the medical world. Up until that time - I was a fairly typical type A personality -driven - could more than multi task - as a matter of fact - often was working on or doing many things at once and that worked well for me and was very rewarding. I had 2 jobs - 2 kids - and did a stellar job at keeping LOTS balls in the air. That is why my new normal can be so exasperating! especially when people say, well you're just getting older, and that happens to us all. On March 2nd I could do all those things and do many of them well. After March 2nd - not so much.
Now don't get me wrong - I am very grateful. It could have been way worse. The same injury and brain bleed on the other side of my brain could have destroyed my speech center. I only lost my sense of smell and taste - not sight and hearing. I could have died. That was a very real possibility. But I am here - able to talk - for the most part unless I'm really stressed and tired and get my words scrambled. I am walking around mostly functioning unless I do way too much and don't moniter my fatigue or get one of those debilitating headaches. So why do I call it the new normal?
I'm not as driven - just wish I could be! I can't multi task! and that can be very frustrating. I get tired - and used to not need sleep, but do now. I used to remember everything for everyone! And now can't remember what I did a couple hours ago or if someone called. I am easily distracted and live in the here and now, and for a perpetual planner, that can bring frustration because I remember who I used to be and recognize I am different. But try to be thankful that I am here to be who I am now and who I am becoming.
So there you have it - the new normal - or is it? Not really because we are all unique - I just have to learn to better appreciate MY uniqueness - I guess we all do!
3 years ago, I had a traumatic brain injury - TBI in the medical world. Up until that time - I was a fairly typical type A personality -driven - could more than multi task - as a matter of fact - often was working on or doing many things at once and that worked well for me and was very rewarding. I had 2 jobs - 2 kids - and did a stellar job at keeping LOTS balls in the air. That is why my new normal can be so exasperating! especially when people say, well you're just getting older, and that happens to us all. On March 2nd I could do all those things and do many of them well. After March 2nd - not so much.
Now don't get me wrong - I am very grateful. It could have been way worse. The same injury and brain bleed on the other side of my brain could have destroyed my speech center. I only lost my sense of smell and taste - not sight and hearing. I could have died. That was a very real possibility. But I am here - able to talk - for the most part unless I'm really stressed and tired and get my words scrambled. I am walking around mostly functioning unless I do way too much and don't moniter my fatigue or get one of those debilitating headaches. So why do I call it the new normal?
I'm not as driven - just wish I could be! I can't multi task! and that can be very frustrating. I get tired - and used to not need sleep, but do now. I used to remember everything for everyone! And now can't remember what I did a couple hours ago or if someone called. I am easily distracted and live in the here and now, and for a perpetual planner, that can bring frustration because I remember who I used to be and recognize I am different. But try to be thankful that I am here to be who I am now and who I am becoming.
So there you have it - the new normal - or is it? Not really because we are all unique - I just have to learn to better appreciate MY uniqueness - I guess we all do!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Joining this blogging world! Am I crazy?
So lately I've realized that I have alot of thougths bouncing around and that a blog may be a great place to get them on paper so to say. So over the next days and weeks, I'll share thoughts from my realist point of view - which doesn't always fit nice and tidy into the current world view around me. What you'll get as a reader - straight talk -pondering - questions - thoughts from someone that sometimes finds herself wondering just what is the meaing of life.
I try not to appear pessimistic and wouldn't necessarily be viewed by many as an optimist - I leave that to my hubby - but really do just see things as they are. My gift/curse of discernment has not always made navigating through life smooth. But is is my view. To be able to see the broad picture of life in all small things, to see how things are interconnected and woven together proves to be interesting at times.
I'll share a life altering incident that happened a few years ago and changed who I am but not necessarily who I am at the core - just how I do life - I call it my new normal!
I'll share my hobbies and interests - my love of beauty, of living things, and of family!
And I look forward to your point of view as you join me on this ride!
Let's get REAL!!!
I try not to appear pessimistic and wouldn't necessarily be viewed by many as an optimist - I leave that to my hubby - but really do just see things as they are. My gift/curse of discernment has not always made navigating through life smooth. But is is my view. To be able to see the broad picture of life in all small things, to see how things are interconnected and woven together proves to be interesting at times.
I'll share a life altering incident that happened a few years ago and changed who I am but not necessarily who I am at the core - just how I do life - I call it my new normal!
I'll share my hobbies and interests - my love of beauty, of living things, and of family!
And I look forward to your point of view as you join me on this ride!
Let's get REAL!!!
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